The Beauty in His Creation

I am at the end of my “Love Dare” book, which has proven to change myself. It was difficult to get through, but I did it. One of the last dares was to commit to doing devotions every day; whether that be finding a devotional book or just reading passages from the Bible daily. I…

Chapter 2 ~ I gain a Sister

I do not remember Charlie or Brenda saying anything about me getting a sister, but that does not mean that they did not. Maybe they told me weeks before, or maybe they just told me when we got there. I do not know. But one day, we drove a few hours away to meet a…

Chapter 1~ Just Me

I was born in September of 1992, to Nichole and Patrick B. They were ages 18 and 20, and had an almost 2-year-old daughter (my full sister). It is funny, because my mother’s hair was only dyed blonde; her natural color is a beautiful dark brown. Both my full sister and I would grow up…

I’m Surrounded by Tiny People… ALL DAY

Today has been so productive! By noon, I had already mopped the floor, gotten groceries, and had a nice lunch out. So why am I sitting at my computer now, trying not to sob like a baby? Here’s why. This morning, my youngest woke me up at 6 a.m. by jumping on me, elbow first,…

Out with the Old, In with the New

Reconciling with a cheating spouse is difficult and exhausting. That being said, you cannot change the past. All you can do is try and push forward. It is surprising how many things can remind you of painful events. A phrase, a smell, different activities. For me, some of the hardest reminders are the ones I…

There may be something there that wasn’t there before…

The last few weeks I’ve really been struggling with how to feel love for my husband again. The last two days, I’ve been blogging my heart out, wondering how on earth I could ever feel anything for him again. I wouldn’t say that I feel love for him, but today something was different. Today, I…

Reconciliation Sucks

Am I even ready to try and fix my marriage? He is ready, and his heart is ready, so why can’t I be? Why is it so hard to find any feelings again for this man, who used to be my world? I used to be madly in love with him… but since his affair,…

Returning to a Cheating Spouse

After being separated from my spouse for 7 months, I moved back in with my husband, taking my two children, ages two and one with me. I feel like this was a terrible mistake. Several months ago, I had given him the ultimatum that he would have to do three things before we reached 6…

Angry

I have hit a point in my separation, that I don’t even want to talk to my husband. He is still in the place where he had an affair, and there is nothing I can do about it. Right now, I need to focus on myself, because my anger is rubbing off on my oldest…

Getting Serious

When God reminds you that you need to work on your own problems, and not worry about others, it’s time to get serious. A continual dripping on a rainy day and a quarrelsome wife are alike; to restrain her is to restrain the wind or to grasp oil in one’s right hand. -Proverbs 27:15-16 So……